After worrying about plans, contemplating whether I should have gone or not, yadda yadda, I went to the fireworks today. There was just so much going on in my head this whole day, it was difficult to live in every moment. My sister’s fiance gave me some wise, straight-up advice: when you commit to something, just don’t think about anything else. Don’t think of the other options, just make a commitment to it and don’t consider changing plans.
That was rad. Because, knowing me, I can’t just say okay sure, I have to analyze it and see the big picture. When I’m making big decisions, am I making the right commitment? Am I even committing myself to whatever I’ve decided on?
Its all about the small things. I’ve been reflecting on that a lot. Just trying to do my absolute best and strive for excellence in every little task I take on. I think that’s why I’ve had this impulse to clean my house. Completing such tasks with confidence and excellence (sans the OCD) gives me the confidence to take on bigger tasks. Baby steps, baby steps.
At the moment I have a task that feels huge, and I’ll probably regret saying that it was huge because I heard a quote once that said we mustn’t consider anything too huge if we know it is attainable, and instead have confidence and faith in yourself to do it, and to do it well. I have two songs to compose for my very first film! Well, its not my film, but its a film I was given to score.
This is something I think I want to do. It seems interesting and uses my passion for music and I really hope that it goes somewhere. A few weeks ago I was so passionate and zealous and ready to take this all on. I guess I’m realizing that while having a passion is wonderful, and also pursuing it as well, its not all honky dory. There is work involved. What sets your passion-filled career apart from parents-expections career is that you believe in the work you’re doing, and I think that that makes ALL the difference.
Like someone once said, “You cannot succeed if you do not like what you are doing.”
We’ll see where this life goes. We’ll see. The past few weeks I’ve been exposed to numerous lifestyles. And it begs the question, why do they choose to live a certain way? How did their upbringing have an affect on their lifestyle?
I want to be happy. I want to not worry about money. At the same time I want to be minimalist and only have things that I absolutely need. I’m always saying I’ll sponsor a child but I never get to it. One reason is that I don’t have a credit card. Anyway I think I’ve lost steam on this post.
That’s all. This is life. Blogging, oddly, or perhaps simply writing, makes me excited about life. Because I think every time you write freely you learn something more about yourself. It is interesting to see the changes.
God bless you all.
Good night.
